Off the grid?

I feel the down slide pulling at me, and while all I want is to reach out to my friends and cling to you like a life vest, that's not fair to any of you. There's just way too much for me to burden anyone else with it, and it's too far down into my well of blackness. For every hour of happiness I have, my brain has to take it's pound of flesh, and I was extremely happy on my vacation. So, I guess now comes time to pay penance for that good time.